/s, right? I think on some level you might wish you were in better shape, which is completely valid. I know it’s difficult though - I just ended a long sedentary streak myself. Redirect the energy in your comment to addressing any needs you have for more physical activity or other self-care. (Aerobic) exercise has so many benefits it’s a safe bet. Find something you enjoy, as it’ll be much easier to stick to it. Sending good vibes your way <3