First. Not a therapist, not a diagnosis, not anything like that. Just it being relatable to me. I also have other voices in my head I thought was normal for my whole life tell I learned about dissociative identity disorder, and I have alters in my system that do that and it can get extremely loud and wanted to let you know your not alone and it’s understandable. My strong suggestion is finding a good therapist that listens to you and responds and not belittling you.

This isn’t me telling you what it is. Just letting you know about my personal experiences with having similar things with my self

D.i.d. be like

Steamos.

Fight me.

There so much systems out there and open. Makes me feel less alone. :)

Have you set boundaries? If not set boundaries on what you need and want in a relationship, if he doesn’t listen or doesn’t respect it. Then it’s time to move on. As someone who has had lots of previous relationships with people who don’t respect my boundaries, it’s incredibly important to set boundaries both ways.

For starters, Ubi, and then expansive and free public transit for all and accessible for all including disabled people, more free places to just go and exist, no facism and more community. That’s just for the beginning though

I play solitaire with open source free polysolfc on f-droid. No ads and no bullshit

Wait what is piefed? Anybody got a short easy to understand description of it or a link to something that’s easy to understand? Or is piefed like another instance of Lemmy?

Oh it was not a good book. Made by someone who’s donated actively to organization that want to make me dead for existing. It was a shit book but the only novel.i ever read.

Enders game a it was the only novel I had finished in my life. Took me 3 years but disabilities like ADHD is horrible for me. I can read pretty well but any books like novels just can’t do it. Also with aphantasia it gets even worse.

Kinda feels like my systems past. I have d.i.d. and often feels that way. Memories of someone else that wasn’t me but I’m now someone else with the same memories but not the same person

Why I love boulders gate 3 where your words actually matter instead of whatever you say is doesn’t matter. One of the few games where I actually listen to the dialogue and think about my choices of responding instead of just picking randomly because it don’t matter

Nobody should ever EVER buy anything or do anything from best buy. They will fuck you over and they pry on non tech people into making them buy overpriced garbage.

I trained my service dog my self and for some fucking reason when she sees a bird or a squirrel her training goes out the window and no matter how much I try she goes straight into what I call guard mode where her ears perk up and hyper alert and try to go after them. Other then that she does everything perfectly for me though.

I can’t down vote or see them in my instance which is really nice imo. But usually if I like it, I upvote it. Relatable, funny interesting.

Because marginalized people need safe spaces without fear of hate or judgement.

Gender fluid probably. Or. Ok hear me out as I didn’t realize this for most of my life. It could possibly be d.i.d. asy gender changes based on who’s fronting and I thought I was gender fluid yet I “know” what gender but only sometimes. It confused me for decades

Being disabled in Amerikkka is basically this. I mean lots of people could feel less pain but government and corporations don’t want that sooooo yeah…

Depends if I have time and I want entertainment at that moment, I know they are trolling and don’t care and usually people just want to get me angry at them so I calmly responded to everything they say as it’s a real legitimate question, treat every question as if there truly caring about it. Most people will just back off after a bit because they can’t get me all angry and pissed off. It’s quite entertaining watching them get angry and wound up because I was trying to answer them honestly and nice way. Doesn’t always work but it’s just something I do I learned really pisses off those kinda people

I always do. Especially my first playthrough of satisfactory years ago I had everything clipping into everything also.