Lists of crisis hotlines across the world: (Crisis Hotline) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crisis_hotline#Telephone_counseling
(Helplines, Suicide Hotlines, and Crisis Lines from Around the World) https://www.therapyroute.com/article/helplines-suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-from-around-the-world
I understand the message but for those suffering, be forewarned, not everyone can understand what you’re going through. People that love you and care about you will just stare at you and say: “umm … okay”. It is not a judgement against them or their character that they don’t understand it.
I say that as someone that was clinically depressed. It was helpful for me, and I can only speak for myself, but try to find others that are feeling the same way and talking to them. It’s far easier to speak to others that “get it”. That’s not to say you shouldn’t open up to your friends … I have and I don’t regret it. However, don’t expect everyone to understand what you’re going through.