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Traditionally, full orgasms have ended our chastity sessions as they give me a large post nut clarity.
Because of that, my mistress has consistently told me that she regrets when I cum and wished she had ruined it. After I cum, she is notably disappointed and disapproving. I don’t love those feelings, whereas ruined orgasms make her almost giddy. She loves my twitching and suffering and likes commanding me to eat it.
Her enthusiasm is additive and so I also crave the denial of a full orgasm.
When I do cum, it fills me with feelings of failure – that I was too weak to hold back or to accept the ruin, and I apologize. I used to “relapse” and fall out of chastity, but instead lately when I’ve had a rare accidental orgasm, the feelings of guilt have been overwhelming.
I tell her what happened and she tells me that I am pathetic and asks me to cage up again if I truly love her. And so I do…and our current session is 98 days. Longer than our previous record of ~45. The difference is that this time orgasms aren’t ending my subservience, so unclear how long we can last. I did recently get a PA which should make cheating harder once it’s stretched up to size.
TL;DR: All that to say, psychologically, full orgasms suck now. Ruined orgasms bring me pleasure through her.
Awesome reply - thank you.
I’m trying to parse the first sentence in your reply. I initially took it to imply that one reason you regret full orgasms is because your mistress makes you eat your cum (which is not as appealing as eating it when you just have ruined orgasms), but I don’t want to guess.
More like we’d do 2 weeks of chastity, sparking our love life and leading to lots of orgasms for her and lots of time making out and teasing. Then, I’d go and orgasm and then lose interest in it all and maybe go back to being uncaged and touching myself. It was a dopamine rush + letdown.
Part of the challenge was that she enjoys having sex with me, but for obvious reasons my stamina is lower during bouts of chastity. What’s worked best for me in this 100+ day stint is:
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