You’re allowed to be stealth. There’s nothing wrong with that. I will never be stealth. Neither will a lot of trans women. Do you see how I can’t just have a quiet life alone and have transness be an incidental detail about me? You’re kind of talking like being stealth is like pushing a button and BAM you just magically conform perfectly to cisgender society and are forever invisible.
That’s not the common trans experience. Most trans women are visibly trans, and most of us will always be visibly trans.
Your experience was at a time when there was no trans visibility. The average population was entirely ignorant of trans people. Being trans was not a “normal okay thing to be”. So yeah no kidding the people you met were older and depressed. Have you ever thought about why they felt that way? Do you think they transitioned knowing their communities their families and their societies would accept them? Do you think they saw trans women out and about in the real world visibly living happy lives even though they’re trans?
I’m sorry you had that experience. But you still don’t seem to understand what trans visibility is. We aren’t cisgender. We never will be cisgender no matter what we do. We will always be trans. Non-binary people also exist and are also trans. They will always be visible and have to explain their identities to others. Trans visibility means seeing trans people at the grocery store. It means seeing trans people at the gym. It means having trans co-workers, trans family members, it means having trans politicians and trans people working in public facing roles. Trans visibility means being trans is okay. That being trans is an okay thing to be. That you can be happy and be visibly trans.
Cisgender society has to come to an end. Society has to embrace gender diverse people and normalize them. You don’t have to be visibly trans if you don’t want to and are capable of going stealth. I for instance can’t do that. Do you understand that? No matter what I do I will always for the rest of my life be a visible trans woman. Do I not deserve happiness too? Should I be forced to hide who I am because I don’t pass? Cause you’re coming off like that’s how you perceive non-passing depresses trans people. Passing is a privilege. If you have it and want to conform to cisgender society by all means. That’s your prerogative. Do as you please. I can’t do that. I will never be able to do that. It’s either detransition and pretend to be a man or go outdoors visibly being a trans woman. I will never go back to pretending to be a man. So I will be visibly trans, and live the best happiest life I can so that trans people who see me know that it is possible to find joy in being trans.
I don’t think you’re understanding my point. Trans-ness is, for me, defined by gender dysphoria. Gender dysphoria, by its very definition, is the pain i experience by not looking like a cis woman. Visibility is not a thing i want to celebrate. Visibility is the affliction.
Can everyone be stealth? No, absolutely not, and being trans should be normalized. But i still feel very uncomfortable with my debilitating endocrine disorder being used as a point of pride, in the same way gay pride is.
I’m gay, and I’m out and proud of that. I love being visibly gay. But being trans is different because it’s not a thing i want to be.
That’s your own internal transphobia. You are trans. It’s who you are. You cant go back in time and make yourself cisgender, neither can i. I’ve got gender dysphoria too, I’m aware of what it is. I had reassignment surgery because I’ve wanted to have a vagina since I was a child. I’ve been on hormones for almost 9 years and meticulously tracked my facial fat and breast development and hip development, even adjusting my own doses to get the absolute best results I could. I’m going to south Korea next year and spending over 12 thousand dollars to get vocal cord surgery to undo the damage that puberty did to them.
I understand that feeling. I’ve always wanted to be a normal cis girl too. And I love my friends who don’t treat me any differently than they do any other girls. I don’t understand men, and my friend groups are composed almost entirely of cis queer women. I like being seen as a woman without any other identifier, because that’s my gender that’s who I am.
But I am proud to be trans. I have had people I knew in real life tell me that seeing me transition and be happy and be confident was what convinced them that they could transition too. I met with one of my friend’s teenage kids who was questioning if he could transition. I’ll never forget the way his eyes nearly fell out of his head just to see a trans person, a trans adult just living a normal life. I loved that experience. I loved being able to show him that if I could do it so could he, and he has since started T and come out to his friends and family. I’m proud of that. I always will be. My best friend in high school, who at the time identified a cis gay man, transitioned because she saw me do it. She sent me a letter years later thanking me for being brave enough to do it when she was so scared to. I cried like a baby reading that.
Trans people can’t be hidden anymore. When trans people aren’t visible only pain and repression happens. I’m doing everything I can to rectify the dysphoria I feel in my body. I want to pass, I want people to see me for who I am. But I’m okay with being trans and I’m okay with showing that world that trans people can be happy. It’s not something anyone is responsible for. Like I said, there’s no shame in going stealth. It’s okay to not want to be visibly trans. But it has to be okay to be visibly trans.
Being trans isn’t simply a diagnosis on a piece of paper. You can act like it is but it isnt. We would hardly be talking about it in these terms if that was the case. Being trans is a life experience, the experience of being raised in a body and gender presentation that was incompatible with who we are. It’s the most awful painful alienating experience in the world, and many of us are literally killed for being trans. It’s not just a medical diagnosis. It’s not that simple. It’s a social class. Society does not treat trans and cis people the same based solely on our being trans.
You’re allowed to be stealth. There’s nothing wrong with that. I will never be stealth. Neither will a lot of trans women. Do you see how I can’t just have a quiet life alone and have transness be an incidental detail about me? You’re kind of talking like being stealth is like pushing a button and BAM you just magically conform perfectly to cisgender society and are forever invisible.
That’s not the common trans experience. Most trans women are visibly trans, and most of us will always be visibly trans.
Your experience was at a time when there was no trans visibility. The average population was entirely ignorant of trans people. Being trans was not a “normal okay thing to be”. So yeah no kidding the people you met were older and depressed. Have you ever thought about why they felt that way? Do you think they transitioned knowing their communities their families and their societies would accept them? Do you think they saw trans women out and about in the real world visibly living happy lives even though they’re trans?
I’m sorry you had that experience. But you still don’t seem to understand what trans visibility is. We aren’t cisgender. We never will be cisgender no matter what we do. We will always be trans. Non-binary people also exist and are also trans. They will always be visible and have to explain their identities to others. Trans visibility means seeing trans people at the grocery store. It means seeing trans people at the gym. It means having trans co-workers, trans family members, it means having trans politicians and trans people working in public facing roles. Trans visibility means being trans is okay. That being trans is an okay thing to be. That you can be happy and be visibly trans.
Cisgender society has to come to an end. Society has to embrace gender diverse people and normalize them. You don’t have to be visibly trans if you don’t want to and are capable of going stealth. I for instance can’t do that. Do you understand that? No matter what I do I will always for the rest of my life be a visible trans woman. Do I not deserve happiness too? Should I be forced to hide who I am because I don’t pass? Cause you’re coming off like that’s how you perceive non-passing depresses trans people. Passing is a privilege. If you have it and want to conform to cisgender society by all means. That’s your prerogative. Do as you please. I can’t do that. I will never be able to do that. It’s either detransition and pretend to be a man or go outdoors visibly being a trans woman. I will never go back to pretending to be a man. So I will be visibly trans, and live the best happiest life I can so that trans people who see me know that it is possible to find joy in being trans.
I don’t think you’re understanding my point. Trans-ness is, for me, defined by gender dysphoria. Gender dysphoria, by its very definition, is the pain i experience by not looking like a cis woman. Visibility is not a thing i want to celebrate. Visibility is the affliction.
Can everyone be stealth? No, absolutely not, and being trans should be normalized. But i still feel very uncomfortable with my debilitating endocrine disorder being used as a point of pride, in the same way gay pride is.
I’m gay, and I’m out and proud of that. I love being visibly gay. But being trans is different because it’s not a thing i want to be.
That’s your own internal transphobia. You are trans. It’s who you are. You cant go back in time and make yourself cisgender, neither can i. I’ve got gender dysphoria too, I’m aware of what it is. I had reassignment surgery because I’ve wanted to have a vagina since I was a child. I’ve been on hormones for almost 9 years and meticulously tracked my facial fat and breast development and hip development, even adjusting my own doses to get the absolute best results I could. I’m going to south Korea next year and spending over 12 thousand dollars to get vocal cord surgery to undo the damage that puberty did to them.
I understand that feeling. I’ve always wanted to be a normal cis girl too. And I love my friends who don’t treat me any differently than they do any other girls. I don’t understand men, and my friend groups are composed almost entirely of cis queer women. I like being seen as a woman without any other identifier, because that’s my gender that’s who I am.
But I am proud to be trans. I have had people I knew in real life tell me that seeing me transition and be happy and be confident was what convinced them that they could transition too. I met with one of my friend’s teenage kids who was questioning if he could transition. I’ll never forget the way his eyes nearly fell out of his head just to see a trans person, a trans adult just living a normal life. I loved that experience. I loved being able to show him that if I could do it so could he, and he has since started T and come out to his friends and family. I’m proud of that. I always will be. My best friend in high school, who at the time identified a cis gay man, transitioned because she saw me do it. She sent me a letter years later thanking me for being brave enough to do it when she was so scared to. I cried like a baby reading that.
Trans people can’t be hidden anymore. When trans people aren’t visible only pain and repression happens. I’m doing everything I can to rectify the dysphoria I feel in my body. I want to pass, I want people to see me for who I am. But I’m okay with being trans and I’m okay with showing that world that trans people can be happy. It’s not something anyone is responsible for. Like I said, there’s no shame in going stealth. It’s okay to not want to be visibly trans. But it has to be okay to be visibly trans.
Being trans isn’t simply a diagnosis on a piece of paper. You can act like it is but it isnt. We would hardly be talking about it in these terms if that was the case. Being trans is a life experience, the experience of being raised in a body and gender presentation that was incompatible with who we are. It’s the most awful painful alienating experience in the world, and many of us are literally killed for being trans. It’s not just a medical diagnosis. It’s not that simple. It’s a social class. Society does not treat trans and cis people the same based solely on our being trans.