I’m at the limit of survival, which is not ideal. By this, I mean I have no income, no financial support, and my van doesn’t start. This last bit turbocharges the first. If I can’t shower, I can’t go into an interview.
And so, my ex shows up, as she always does. She moved back to Oregon and discovered that where one is at does not assist what one wants. So she’s in Texas now, needing to be useful in some way that her increasingly shitty job cannot provide.
Which puts us on the same path for the first time since meeting 14 years ago. There was a lot of throat-clearing on the call last night before we realized we’d found our own paths to the same place. I don’t know what this means … I don’t think regaling y’all with details is particularly helpful, but she has energy I don’t to throw at my family, who’s given up on me because I see late-stage capitalism for what it is.
Given prior art that would necessitate a trigger warning, I can’t see being part of the machinery that tells us to obey.
But what’s so absurd is the person who may be my biggest exponent is also the person who crushed me and turned me into who I am. It’s like Stockholm Syndrome on steroids.
We had this beautiful decade wherein we didn’t have to worry about things. Which came to an abrupt close with 9/11.
I’m not someone who believes it was an inside job, but holy shit, did it provide the opportunity to consolidate power and expand what the state does. What’s really alarming is that the party of limited government chose to turn us into a surveillance state.
I grew up during that time. I was 13 on 9/11. I was victim to the propaganda. I served, and while it allowed me stability of a sort, it also broke who I thought I was, despite not doing a single thing that violated my morals.
Fortunately, in her place is a communist.
Eyes open.
All we can do is bring people around. If people see the status quo as unacceptable, it will change one way or another.