• kamenLady.
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    I perceived something like an ease of anxiety, it happened when I was already older, like over 40, and was experiencing a lot of stress at work and private life. It wasn’t even my intention, to do shrooms for this reason. I just felt like it and made myself a cozy Friday evening, with shrooms. For a moment i had it all laid out, something like a mind map, with all my problems pointing to the stress agent. I felt a sense of ease, because i was never able to focus on one problem before and now i was focused not only on one, but all at the same time. It was also like i had taken a few steps back and was observing from a distance, which helped to see things clearer.

    It is so difficult to explain, because i felt a complete absence of emotion towards the problems, but at the same time i was as emotional as i haven’t been for a long time. It was like being able to filter all things you are sensing and abstracting emotions from things that actually don’t deserve emotion, but rather cold minded rational thinking, to be able to deal with it.

    It was by far not the all around healing and problem solving experience, but it changed the way i face things in life from the ground up. It’s a state of mind that always helps me to connect with myself.

    What i like about the experiences while on shrooms, is that you don’t forget the experience and still reflect about the whole ordeal even days later.

    To me, it always feels like a natural way of unintended self therapy. Unintended, because i never plan to think about something specific, when consuming and i don’t have any expectations beforehand.

    Also, not every experience is the same or goes as deep as the last one. Sometimes it’s all just about laughing at some good comedy, enjoying a new album or taking a walk and enjoy nature.