I have a deep urge to be independent, but I think my mind has taken it too far. I want to be able to make everything myself, I want to do all from machining, to electronics and plumbing to bricklaying to programming.
I feel like men reach more for this independence or am I crazy?
I do. My parents did a ton of building our house themselves, and my dad also fixed the car all the time including removing and repairing the engine. So I think I get the tendency from seeing that behavior modeled.
Issue is I don’t have the same drive, and realistically I think it’s not entirely healthy because there’s not enough time in the day. It can cause issues when something needs to get done but you won’t pay for it or allow someone else to do it.