i feel like it’s such a big part of my life but i don’t talk to anyone about it… i’m about to go to bed and i stroked myself to orgasm so many times, shot so many loads out… sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night horny and fuck my pillow before i fall asleep again… it feels so good and i feel so connected to my body… i love being horny and have no one to share it with haha…

what’s your favorite ethical porn… i feel like lemmy nsfw is alright about it, tho probably not perfect… i think i’ll sign up for kink.com, i think it might be the only ethical porn site with hard enough porn for my tastes… oh well, it be like this

gngnngng i’ll read replies tomorrow sometime

  • aguyinheatOPEnglish
    3•5 months ago

    i guess i assumed i was talking about people who are normal about porn. but i mean, idk, i think knowing a few actors you like isn’t like… crazy? there’s probably a certain level where you’re too interested in it, right, but i don’t think that’s exclusive to porn

    there’s also a thought like… yeah, i do miss being partnered… but, i also kinda don’t. like, i’m chill with it. part of it is that i have an absolutely bonkers sex drive and i’m probably better off regulating it on my own than with a partner and the baggage that comes with. and i don’t think i want my sexuality to be something that exclusively belongs with another person, i like having it for myself sometimes. i like that it’s sometimes not about intimacy

    don’t get me wrong, really good intimate sex is incredible. it’s great. would love to have it again

    i just don’t miss it that much, at least not more than i suffer from a general touch deprivation. i miss it the same way i miss staring deeply into someone’s eyes and holding their hand and kissing them. but i think you get that re: rather have a long makeout session nowadays (even if it still ends in sex)

    i like the intimacy, but i also like that primal place where you’re just fucking. and honestly i guess it’s pretty hard for me to get to that place with another person nowadays, i don’t really trust people to be really sensitive to their needs and willing to speak up for them… LMAO ofc due to past experience

    but it’s fine, i’m more or less content engaging in it with myself

    and the porn helps with that, it’s fun and i agree, i don’t think i can ever know if it was made consentually, i can at least try to do some research and support things where people do interviews and seem genuine and whatnot

    idk how good of a job i did like… engaging with your comment as opposed to just kind of rambling about my own shit. but i liked your post and i hope you like mine

    • southsamuraiEnglish
      2•5 months ago

      It’s all good, there’s nothing wrong with some mutual rambling lol

      But, the folks I meant are the ones that rattle off bios of dozens of porn actors off the top of their heads. Which, I agree, isn’t far off from folks that do it with conventional actors! It’s a blurry line between interest and obsession.

      And I definitely feel you regarding self love being a wonderful thing by itself, and sexuality not being exclusive to a partnership. The kind of skin hiker hunger you mentioned, the craving of human touch, is also a separate thing from sexuality and partnerships sometimes.

      I guess what I’m saying is that I feel you, I get where you’re coming from (and those double entendres weren’t intentional, but I’m leaving them now that I notice them lol).

      Having a high libido definitely adds “pressure” to finding a good sexual balance with the self, and partners. Self love is still love, and there’s nothing wrong with fucking yourself into a stupor :). I know in my younger days, I always found it a bit unbalanced to try and expect partners to fulfill my entire sexual needs. Even when a partner matched my libido, it just seems off to place all that on another, if you get me.