Obviously you don’t need to do anything you aren’t comfortable with, but there are lots of ways of having sex without worrying about having a kid. And plenty of people engage in serious relationships with the mutual understanding that they won’t have kids. Just putting it out there since it sounds like you are internally conflicted. I want to give you permission to seek love if you want to. It doesn’t have to look a certain way.
I hope you find a way to open up and trust someone. I hope you find someone that makes you want to trust. It sounds like a very lonely and damaging way to live. Maybe you should look into therapy. It sounds like you have a lot of hangups from your past and have projected them into irrational assumptions about the people around you. Good luck, friend!
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Obviously you don’t need to do anything you aren’t comfortable with, but there are lots of ways of having sex without worrying about having a kid. And plenty of people engage in serious relationships with the mutual understanding that they won’t have kids. Just putting it out there since it sounds like you are internally conflicted. I want to give you permission to seek love if you want to. It doesn’t have to look a certain way.
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I hope you find a way to open up and trust someone. I hope you find someone that makes you want to trust. It sounds like a very lonely and damaging way to live. Maybe you should look into therapy. It sounds like you have a lot of hangups from your past and have projected them into irrational assumptions about the people around you. Good luck, friend!
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