I’m on the smaller side of average and most of the time I wish I could make it smaller 🙈. As a youth I wished it was bigger. Now, I know I’m mentally a sub/bottom and someone who’s generally a very progressive person, and I find the ‘biological determinism’ aspect (ie, big dick tops, small dick bottoms) of the ‘size comparison’ fetish very hot. On a more meta level, I don’t think it’s mentioned much how unrepresentatively large the penises in porn are. That definitely fed into my initial anxiety (ie, youth appraisals that I might be small if I’m smaller than most cocks in porn). Now I’m seeking out pics of the thickest members online lol. I’m looking forward to more of your posts and might throw some up myself!