I don’t like being referred to as a “person with autism”. I can’t just set it down, it’s not something I can remove. It is fundamental to the way I interact with the world, right down to how stim enters my brain. If my brain has types of inputs no allistic person can even approach, and methods of processing inherently different, it is an existence no allistic person can reach. There is no version of me that is not autistic.
A “cure” is the same as shooting me and replacing me with someone else.
The type of person I am is autistic. I am autistic.
I know it is a big trend in anarchist spaces to use person first language, but in many situations that just sounds like eugenics to me. Personhood is not some distinct universal experience. There is no “ideal human mind” floating out there in the aether for them to recognize in me.
I get that person first language helps some people recognize that thoughts happen behind my eyes, but if the only way they can do that is by imagining I’m them, I don’t care.
I know this is a 4 month old comment, but maybe this explains why I’m just not connecting with my anxiety CBT therapist, whereas I did really well with my phobia CBT therapist.
I’m 5 sessions in and I still feel like she just does not get it. For the second session I even brought in printouts from the National Autistic Society’s page on anxiety. She skimmed through, said, This is the same as non autistic people.
She described my difficulty in dealing with new people and social situations as overthinking, and when I told her I don’t see it as that at all, spent a lot of time trying to convince me that my processing issues are just overthinking, so I gave in. She admitted herself she has no knowledge of autism and because I don’t have an official diagnosis (it’s a three year wait now for adults), I think she just dismissed it.
Now I’m wondering if it’s worth continuing, because I don’t think I’m gaining anything from this.
It very much sounds like she’s not getting it, and isn’t willing to learn. I’d definitely find someone else.
It’s up to you if you want to tell your current therapist, and why. I doubt it’ll make any difference in her approach.
I’m getting it on the NHS, so if I ask for a new therapist it might be a 6 month wait, just to get another one who’s maybe clueless about autism related anxiety too. I’ll try to ask this one to spend a bit of time learning. If she still doesn’t then I’ll see what the procedure is if I want to switch therapists.
In other news, my GP is helping me get an assessment referral and he said the waiting list is closer to 18 months than three years.