Xmas, new year, valentine’s… Seems like the festivities are there just to remind me how much I failed as an adult man incapable of getting company. It’s been over a decade since I’ve felt this way and nothing changes.
Alcohol and porn has lost its charm over the years.
OP - from the responses you’ve given to many of the replies, it feels like you’ve lost faith in mankind. As many of us do feel time to time or even all the time. If you haven’t tried, try to walk into a church that’s left it’s doors open for people to walk in whenever (instead of attending a service/ mass, etc.). If you wanted to, you could probably even walk up to someone who works at the church and tell them your frustrations. Usually a church with open doors have a welcoming air.
At worst, it’s another crapshoot. At best, you might find something uniquely different.