To explain what I mean, I think you can level up a cooking style. For example, pasta. At level 1, you’re boiling dried pasta and adding sauce out of a jar. At level 1, you add your own spices. Level 3, switch to fresh pasta. Level 4, make your own sauce. And finally at level 5, make the pasta from scratch.
So with BBQ, I guess level 1 would be cooking the meat so it’s neither burnt nor underdone. Maybe level 2 is mixing different meats/cuts that have different heat/time requirements and cooking well. Further levels = ?
Perhaps I meant cooking my own flesh…
You should practice more kindness to yourself. Realize that there are people out there who know you and who c̷͔͉̟̲̙̟̭̒̀̔̾̈͝ͅa̸͈̠̗̠̲̣̬͆̕ͅr̵̼̭̗͍͂̅ͅe̷͈̹̬̬͖̥͖̊ ̷̤̥̥͉̥̳̝͘a̴̡̨̪̳͎̭̠̞͆͒͝͝b̴̥̆̈́̊̑͋̄̉͠ọ̷͖͎̭̩̀̅͊̏͗̕̚ử̶͔̖̭͇͆͜t̵̰̣͙̔̇́̀̽̐̓͘ ̴̩͓̖̱̿͂͜y̵̢̪͉̙͕͍̌͋͊̍͆͘͜͝o̴͙͕̫̟̗͛̏u̴̬͒̿̆͌̀.
This is the water this is the well.