As you may have seen from UmmThatGuys post the other day, I’m not on the team anymore. I didn’t get kicked or anything, I just left. Some people may or may not know I’ve been dealing with some shit for the past year. What most people don’t know is that I have not been dealing with it well which is why the extremely sporadic posting that I’ve been doing. Social media stuff was just compounding. Partially out of stress and partially just out of the energy needed. Like I went from responding to a lot of comments on the post to barely any because I just don’t have the energy.
Then this month I’m turning 33. I’ve lied about when my birthday is on here in the past because I actively avoid my birthday that badly. Childhood wasn’t a good time for me and my birthday was less about me and more about my mothers apprehensions. Every year around this time I just get more and more overwhelmed until the day happens. That day feels like I’m drowning. The day after, everything is perfectly fine. Well, that day is getting closer and I’ve been not doing great. Just another thing to add to the pile that has been a lot to cope with.
Few days ago things got to a point and I had like two straight days of panic attacks and made the decision to leave Lemmy. Left some groups that were associated with Lemmy, made Picard top mod of 10F, and made a post saying goodbye. I ended up deleting that very shortly after posting it because it got way more attention than I was expecting which sparked another panic attack.
I might be back. I don’t know when. Maybe a week. Maybe a couple months. Maybe never. Who knows. I won’t be bugging to be added to the mod team or anything, I’m not so egotistical that I need a green M next to my name. Only thing I do know is that this community is everything that I ever hoped for and the mods here are everyone I could have dreamed of. Umm was always on my shortlist of mods to add if ever needed and I could not be happier that he was taken on to fill my space.
Love you guys.
- A tired, tired homo
Do anything and everything you need to, Stamets. Its been an honor and you deserve happiness wherever you may be in your life. I hope the peace you’re looking for finds you like a Hallmark Movie.
Ad Astera Per Aspera
I just want a couple days where things are okay. Where I’m not worried about the news. Not worried about my life. Not worried about my friends. To just be okay. Really wish I could go camping and just cut off from everything.
Good luck with everything.
Take care of yourself
I want to be Gandalf and say something along the lines of we all have our own fates and feel the same, but fuck that. Fuck these times. There was no good reason for them. I couldn’t imagine already having anxiety issues on top.of all this shit. With all of my heart, I hope that one day, our collective shut the fuck up, actually does something. I hope one day people can just be people without any of this. Until then, my back fucken hearts and this nicotine is just as calming as any fire. Keep your head up, and any gods that haunt the afterlife better find something to pray to by the time we make it there.
Honestly not a bad idea - probably too late for this year but for something to look forward to in the next? And even for now, are there any hiking trails near you? I hope you don’t even read this until after your birthday is over, but if you do… find a way to enjoy it. Even if only by staying in and crying. Whatever cathartic thing you can think of, my dude!:-) YOU are WORTH it!
Easy, I simply choose the universe with more Jeffrey Combs in it.
Now go away my dude… so you can come back refreshed and happier after your break 😁.
We’ll be here for ya.
Love you, Number One <3
hugs take care of yourself dude. We’ll be here when you’re ready.
just a heads up for everyone in general: a fun fact no one tells you is that around age 40 is when your patchwork of coping mechanisms pretending be mental health completely stops fucking working, so get on top of that shit now!
Can confirm. Source: am approximately that age and it did in fact shut down all together. 🙃
Jokes on you - mine stopped working long before that!:-P
Thanks for checking in and not going totally scorched Earth on the socials.
I’m still worried about Flying Squid and hope they’re doing okay
Take it easy and come back anytime. You’ll be missed while you’re away
never sleep with the boss’s wife unless you paid him first. from the holy book of the ferengi rules of acquisition
Take care of yourself. We’ll be here should Lemmy/10F ever fit into your well-being again.
Thanks for all the great content and work. May Combs be with you.
Can I have Frakes instead? And in my bed?
But thank you <3
Were I Q, he’d be waiting… in the outfit of all outfits.
Outfits? You have the wrong idea.
Is this better?
Relax. The world will spin beside itself to pull you in, with threats and hopes beyond compare…
-Phish
It’s ok to take a step away and breathe. As my Spanish teacher used to say, if you don’t have your health you don’t have anything. When you’re ready to return, you’ll be welcomed back with open arms (because you are one of the coolest cats on here), but feel no guilt about taking the time to take care of you.
Best wishes from a stoned crow - get well soon!
from a stoned crow
Which only makes it better. Love me some corvids. I play a black feathered aarakocra in my Tuesday DnD game named Nevermore. Just big crow boy and I love him so much. A bit of art I had commissioned for him a few years ago when I had a few bucks to spare. Artist slightly fucked the feathers on the chest and made them brown but meh. I didn’t want to bug them to fix it.
Sorry I might have ADHD.
Corvids are indeed the best. We have a few ravens and a lot of magpies that live near me. Always amazing to see/watch. (like this):
We’ll hold the fort down. c/TenFoward is your baby. We’ve built a good thing here, and we’ll be here if/when you decide to return. Take care.
I have a family of Magpies (yellow beak, I’m in California) that live in my yard! We fed them every morning for a few days and now they stay here and happily wait each morning for their peanuts and such. Couple have dropped various items on our porch. Love them so much.
Take care Stamet, I don’t know you or you me but I love your content.
I’ll gladly drop you some peanuts in my yard if you like.
Sorry I might have ADHD.
Who on the Fediverse doesn’t!?🤪
Never apologize for taking care of your health, especially your mental health.
I love you … we all love you … because you are a good decent humble intelligent and absolutely funny human being.
I never minded that you were sporadic on Lemmy … I worry about the mods and the people everywhere on Lemmy who feel a need to always perform for all of us everywhere. It takes a toll on people who constantly feel that they should provide for us all us a steady supply of new content.
It’s moments like this that the rest of us should think about posting more and contributing more to take the load off of people like yourself and the mods who work tirelessly here.
To you and to the mods, I would rather see you take it easy from time to time just to take a rest and refresh yourselves and enjoy other pursuits and activities away from here. I would rather see you go quiet once in a while knowing that you are taking a break and then return again fresh and ready to have more fun.
Social media is like a drug … some of us have it wired into your throats like Ketracel White and we are hopelessly addicted to it … I constantly fight the urge to stay on here longer that I have to … when the drug starts affecting your overall life and health, you know you have a problem - no matter what the addiction is … we should treat social media more like a Raktajino that we enjoy for a short day shift once in a while
Stay well Stamets … take all the time you need … I wish you well (I always wish you well) … your fans will be here when you return
Much love for you dude! You’ve made many days of many people a lot happier just for being you!
thank you for contributing towards the 10F of today 🫡🫡
Cheers and hope you do OK with yourself!
I don’t think we’ve ever interacted much, but I’ve always enjoyed seeing your posts. I missed the goodbye post but saw people talking about it and was concerned it was something about the community being too toxic or something like that. Not that it’s better that you’re struggling, but I’m at least glad it wasn’t people here running you off.
I get the pressure to reply to every response I get, and honestly one way I cope with it is by remembering that I would consider it absurd to expect others to do that, which means that I’m also allowed to not reply to every single comment. People on the internet aren’t entitled to energy you don’t have.
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time, I hope it passes quickly and we see you again.
Here’s to you, buddy! A finer gentlemen with which to share 10F, I haven’t met! Take care of yourself XOXO
I haven’t directly talked to you too much (besides the conversation we’re having/had on discord right now lol) but you’re such a great guy, stamets. I don’t blame you at all for what you did, fwiw.
See you later and happy birthday (for the second time this day. lmao)
You have leaked the fact that I have a discord I am still active on. This is a betrayal. The moose have been dispatched.
:sob: it’s MEESE!
Moosen?
Moosi.
I always love this factoid … I’m Indigenous Cree/Ojibway and I fluently speak my language … our word for one moose is ‘moose’ … the name of the animal was taken directly from Indigenous languages.
And in my language, two or more moose is ‘moosuk’
Moopsy?
(/s - don’t ever stop believing, you can do it!)
