As a child I never had goals, wants, needs or dreams. This continued through adulthood. I could never identify the “what”, (most people struggle with the “how”). Anyway, the issue is lack of authenticity and sense of self, which looks like being directionless and not being able to lead myself - my coping mechanism was codependence. My codependency is kind of funny though, because it only happened with people I didn’t really know. If someone tried to get close to me, I was out.