Well I think I might be autistic, I’ve wondered why I feel so different from other people, why it feels like I am taking my entire life, why when I lose focus, or am not being focused on i become completely silent and struggle to make even simple comments, and why I have had to watch and learn from others to become remotely social. I guess those are all signs of autism. I took that RAADS-R test and got a score of 141, which is slightly above the mean for autistics, I also took a few other of those quizzes.
But my question is what happens now? What do I do? I don’t feel comfortable asking my parents if I can get examined, I can’t really afford to do it myself, but I guess I could try. I don’t want to just start saying that I’m autistic, and have to mention that it’s self diagnosed because I think we all know the stigma around that.
Heck I’m still in the stage (or I assume it’s a stage because it matches that one post here where they talked about their stages of realizing they have autism, and I related completely to it) where I’m not sure if I am not just faking this whole thing. So what do I do now?
Thank you, a wall of text is fantastic, it’s so weird to see issues and problems I’ve been having that have felt like they were just something I experience just written out by someone I don’t even know yet.
That first comment on not feeling like your Autistic enough hits home so hard. I’ve felt that ever since I started wondering if I was autistic. It’s definitely not a struggle I’m over but having someone else even mention it is amazing. Thank you.
And for stimming, I’ve learned to spin just about any object across my palm, I had no idea that’s what I was doing. This whole time I just though I was just fiddling. That’s so cool that there’s a word for that. Thank you for your wall of text and advice, I guarantee you I’ll be competing back to this comment over and over.