• TheaoneAndOnly27
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      In December 2022 I realized I skipped seeing my cardiologist for 6 years. Did a 24 hour monitor. Apparently my heart rate was dropping to 21 bpm and stopping pumping for up to three seconds. So in February 2023 they cut me open and give me a pacemaker. Months go on and I am still getting winded. So they did another heart Cath procedure (on the 28th) and it turns out my heart is doing worse than thought even, so in the next 3-5 years I’ll need a heart transplant. But the make up of my organ layout means I’ll need a specialist, which just all sounds so slim. I am 33 and so fucking tired.

      I hope to leave some of this stress behind. I know there’s a lot I can’t escape now, but I hope I can leave some of the anger and fear behind. It’s been hard to be a good dad or partner this year just from feeling so stressed, and if I don’t know how long we will have I just want my daughter to remember a happier dad.

      • @[email protected]
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        God I feel you so hard my guy.

        I’m only a few years older than you and have ischaemic cv disease (blocked arteries). It’s a common problem in people twice my age. I thought I ate well and exercised regularly but it turns out that stuff doesn’t help that much if you lost the genetic lottery like me.

        I had a heart attack this year, while my partner was pregnant with our first children. Yes 2x kids. They were born a few months ago.

        IDK if I have 2 years or 20 years to do my best for them… but fuck it’s a bitter pill.

        I absolutely get the dread / fear / anger.

        Every time I have a new blood test that shows I’m more fucked than I hoped it just… hurts.

  • @[email protected]
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    2811 months ago

    being overly paranoid about finances

    i used ynab for a while but am now realizing it’s probably worse for my mental health to keep track of things that granularly. need to go back to a more zoomed out, normal person sort of management scheme

  • Björn Tantau
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    Long Covid.

    Being woken up by fireworks wasn’t conducive of healing, though.

      • The Barto
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        211 months ago

        Fireworkes a slightly cooler than that, at least they flash pretty colours when they terrorize people.

  • Sagrotan
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    2211 months ago

    Everybody dying in my family. I’m sick of going to funerals and pretending to be sad or something. I’m not. Death is part of life. Fucking masquerade.

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      Fuck western funerals. Dying of old age in the west isn’t sad, it’s the ultimate conclusion to that person’s story and should be celebrated. Edit: I mean celebrate their life not their death.

      But, the funeral industry gotta sell you a shitty coffin, sell you a shitty service. Shitty people gotta show off how sad they are. Edit: being an edgy arsehole isn’t cool. Grieve how you want, not how someone else thinks you should, including me.

      • Victor
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        I was sad when my dear grandpa died. He was like a (second) father to me. He taught me many things and was the sweetest man in the world, with more love in his heart than he knew what to do with. He was a great father, a great husband, and he grew up from nothing, fatherless himself, yet turned himself into an exemplary human being and man. A role model if you will.

        Definitely wept at his funeral, because I missed him dearly already. Your situation not being similar doesn’t mean I have to pretend not to be sad. That’s bullshit.

        • @[email protected]
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          711 months ago

          In the light of another day, that was uncool of me.

          Everyone is right to grieve their own way.

          • Victor
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            411 months ago

            Thank you for that. You’re a good person.

            Much love. ❤️ Take care in 2024!

          • Victor
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            211 months ago

            We really were. I try to be like him towards my kids, but I’m nowhere near as kind and loving, and I’m pretty kind and loving.

            Take care! ❤️🫂

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              I’m sure you are doing a great job. Ive no kids but likewise I have a shining example to guide me. Thanks , you too. Wishing you and your family health and happiness in the new year and the years to come ❤️

      • @[email protected]
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        Ah Jesus how high mighty do you have to be to be above grieving losing a loved one. Funerals are a celebration of someone’s life, it’s like one of the opening lines of every funeral I’ve been to.

        It doesn’t matter the age, if the person was important to you their absence can impact you emotionally.

        Get yourself checked.

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          Check your reading comprehension and try again.

          That someone completed their full life is a cause for celebrating their life, not grieving their death.

          Lamenting someone’s early death is also appropriate.

          Having had a number of experience of both… I’m fine.

          How high and mighty doyou have to be?

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            311 months ago

            Shitty people gotta show off how sad they are

            That says enough for me, however you defend it being sad at the loss of someone you cared about is justifiable and not shitty regardless of their age…or being in “the west”

      • @jaschen
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        611 months ago

        It’s only sad if they are under 50. RIP mom.

    • Erasmus
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      411 months ago

      God yes. I was a bit of an accident in my family and have a slew of aunts, uncles and cousins who are all 60-90 now. It’s been an interesting past couple of years and I am not looking forward to the next few.

    • Victor
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      Here’s to hoping the crime part is just you stealing chocolate bars.

      Hope you find the strength to kick the meth problem. ❤️

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    My tendency to get walked all over. Recent events made me realise that I need to get a lot better at putting my foot down and telling people when there’s a problem.

    To cut a week-long story short, my NYE plans to do pub karaoke (which I planned nearly a month in advance) got hijacked when another friend group decided to make alternate plans to go to the club and make one of my close friends cancel on me. This led to me being pressured by another close friend into cutting my original plans two hours short so that my friend group could all be together at midnight. Of course, the other group making the alt plans all pulled out on the morning of the 31st Dec, leaving me and my three other friends with tickets to go to a nightclub that I didn’t particularly want to go to.

    I don’t like clubbing. Nightclubs are overcrowded, loud to the point where you literally can’t hear anybody and have to yell at the bartender to even order a drink, and they make me feel isolated. I also feel insecure about my physical attractiveness and jealous due to my inability to pull.

    Botched NYE plans aside, 2023 definitely ended on a good note. I went from working in a crappy purchase ledger job, to facing layoffs, to escaping redundancy by finding a much better internal role that has honestly felt like a culture shock to me.

    • Victor
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      311 months ago

      Do you, king! You deserve it (I think)! ❤️💪

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    The word “literally”. I get that an entire generation would have no more superlatives, but it’s got to be done.

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      A lot of my stress disappeared when changing jobs. Before that, I was having a lot of sleepless nights and even had frequent brain zaps/hypnic jerks.