Been into sissy porn, captions, etc for a few years. Ever since the pandemic I started to consume more porn and started to really crave being a sissy, suck a cock and being fucked. It got to the point where I opened a kik and started flirting with men online to make them cum.

Given how much fun and horny that made me I finally caved and decided to get grindr, message a few men until one made me feel safe enough and we agreed to meet up on his lunch break. He came over, pulled his cock out, I got on my knees and began to suck. I was a proper porn whore, his cock was all sloppy from my spit by the time he finished in my mouth and I drank it all.

I’m not exactly having regrets but I also don’t feel anything in particular. Like it felt hollow, my cock never even got hard during the blow job (though I did make a wet spot in my panties). I don’t know if I just hyped it up too much in my head because of all the hypno and captions saying I would feel addicted. So now I’m just wondering if I really am a sissy or this was just a fantasy that should be kept online. Any opinions or insights are appreciated

  • ObserverOfShadows
    2•1 year ago

    My opinion may be biased, since I’m a Dom, but I think that other commenters nailed it:

    1. It was a quicky, that’s why you didn’t feel anything deep. It seems that you need a longer term or at least better prep’d relations. It is still possible to do it “hypno” style - use, abuse and throw away, but with caring dom it will feel deeper.
    2. Give it some time to settle. And look for some other stories / experience from other sissies not on porn sites, but in communities.

    At least now you can brag about it, if you want :) And to some degree it is a milestone - first successful IRL encounter. It takes courage to admit and try, so congrats are in order - 🎉