Your 100% right I was not wanted and it showed by how I was raised and how I raised my children. I was a better father than my dad but not by much. It is hard to get away from the way you were raised to see the world and how there are better ways to parent.
You also learn as an adult that there are better families and not ever home is this way.
That’s the difference between my first and second marriage in a nutshell. Moving away (psychologically, not physically) from all the horrible shit I grew up with and thinking that was normal to having a better understanding of what I want to have in my life and some idea of how to get there.
Your 100% right I was not wanted and it showed by how I was raised and how I raised my children. I was a better father than my dad but not by much. It is hard to get away from the way you were raised to see the world and how there are better ways to parent.
That’s the difference between my first and second marriage in a nutshell. Moving away (psychologically, not physically) from all the horrible shit I grew up with and thinking that was normal to having a better understanding of what I want to have in my life and some idea of how to get there.