What qualities do you covet?
I really struggle to answer this even though I have this constant feeling of something being wrong. I’ve been quite lucky with genetics and the things I’ve wanted to change that can be changed I pretty much already have.
I guess there are two things I’d like to even further improve on:
- I’d like to care less. I like myself the least when I get emotionally captured. I’d like to just be able to let it go and be teflon where nothing sticks.
- I’d like to naturally want to read more.
Good health. But alas.
I wish I was happy. Not even all of the time, just some?
Ugh, I feel this. I’m just so done.
Wish I wasn’t depressed and anxious so I could do what normal people seem to do normally every they meanwhile it takes me a week if I have better episode.
I sometimes wish I could be social without feeling mentally and physically drained.
I wish I was more disciplined/focused.
I wish I was worth peoples’ time.
Someone made an offhand comment that I would be an otter if only I were more laid back.
And honestly, that made me kinda wish I could be more relaxed and chill. Everything just seems to important and stressful and difficult and intense to me… I wish I could just turn that all off and just let things happen to me as they come rather than fearing and planning for the future.
To not procrastinate.
I’ll comment on this later.
That I was as socially confident as other people seem to be, I don’t care if it’s all a facade, I want to be able to use the facade.
What helps me is knowing that everyone is fucking awkward.
I’ve met thousands upon thousands of people and I have never met anyone who is not socially awkward, just a lot of people who are socially skilled in different ways.
The people who don’t come across as awkward are the people who acknowledge their awkwardness and own it, who give themselves an opportunity to fumble with their awkwardness and to get used to it the same way you do with any other difficult thing like math or reading or studying or dance or games.
I said all of that to say, not being awkward is not a talent, it is a skill, and you can learn it.
I wish I didn’t have an addictive personality. I just wanna be a casual heroin user, is that too much to ask for? I don’t want to sell my mom’s TV for another hit rather have a job and pay for my own scores. Ya know responsibly
Not having any signs or traits of being neurospicy
Be able to draw fast. I’m hilariously slow at drawing 😂
Stay out of the wild West
I wish I was persuasive
A really old book, how to win friends and influence people, can teach you this.
Fitness/athleticism.
This for sure! I didn’t appreciate my knees enough when they worked better.
