I’m sorry to hear that you feel so lonely. I can empathize with a lot of what you wrote, although to a lesser degree. Anxiety sucks and the pandemic period really made things exponentially worse. I know it did for me at least working remote and moving between three US states.

Everyone has the same worries and fears. They manifest in different ways and shapes, but they’re there whether it’s meeting someone for the first time or doing something new for the first time. At a certain point you have to be okay with putting yourself out there and maybe getting hurt. Not everything will work out, but what if it does? In most cases you have more to gain than you would ever lose.

All of this is obviously easier said than done but you’re stronger than you think you are.